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Tuesday, August 19, 2008
bbq Category: Life
The BBQ for James was nice. It was nice to see all of the family together,...meaning both sides. It was great to see most of his crew there as well. They're a "motley" bunch somewhat, but they all seem like pretty good kids, and they are really going to miss their "Dungeon Master" and friend.

Of course, I got snap happy with my camera. I remember when my brother left for boot camp and we had his going away party. I still have one of the pictures. Looking back at all of his buddies then, its amazing to see that there are like 5 of those buddies that he still keeps in touch with today. So, when taking the "crew" pic, I wondered what they would all turn out to be in the next 5, 10, 20 years, and who would still be around. I think most of them will keep in touch, which I'm looking forward to.

Yesterday, was a little nerve racking, in the sense or trying to get things in order, mainly paper work. My gosh! I keep EVERYTHING!!!! And cannot seem to let things go. Well, much to the "assistance" of both Chris and Jr., and to many thoughts of wanting to bite them, and actually getting up and leaving the room after making Jr. yell,...I sifted through the mounds of letters and actually got everything into a presentable folder for our trip out to Arizona. Whew! There's still many things to do! Especially for today.

For today, again, I need to keep things in stride, and get my tasks all done. I just saw him pedal off, maybe for the last time until christmas? Summer break? I don't know,....and I absolutely hate the thought of "the last time to see/experience things in regards to one of my children. I mean, its not the end of anything. Its on to a new chapter of life.

I've been trying to keep busy, and with everything in the last few months, it hasn't been hard. Vacation, summer school, grades, semi-tutoring at home, chores,......they've all kept me busy, busy enough not to sit and dwell on the next two days and start missing him. But now, those two days are staring me in the face. I will miss him.

And I am soooooooooooooo damn excited and nervous for him. I am actually sending my first born off to college! Seeing him off to a brand new chapter in his life. Pictured it in my mind before, but very different to be actually going through it.

Well, its already past 7am, and need to get my day started. Need to get busy, yet again.

I can't wait to see what this chapter reads like,...............................
gidget gurlie
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