full circle,....

I just finished reading the eldest of my crew's prompt (well, one of them) for one of his college applications. And needless to say,... I started tearing up. Yeah, no surprise there! But not for obvious reasons, but rather what I had hoped would happen. Its coming full circle,...................

And let me stop here and add,................yeah, "Gidget will anyway!"..................... that I do believe in the full circle of things. But I also believe in "mini-circles" of life, achievement, and balance, if you will. And if I need to explain that,.............well, you'll just have to wait for another blog! *Ahem! So this is one of those "mini-circles"...................that will definitely make it to the larger,............

While reading his prompt, I felt like I had to 'really' read it, meaning this was not just a surface writing but rather an in depth reading. That is how he writes. He uses big words,...big ideas,.... and just paints a picture most cannot understand. And how beautiful it is to see this in him. Yes, he has a long way to go in his writing but really,....... its really good. He is definitely set apart from the rest of the "sheep" which is one thing I have stressed. I'm glad he's unique and not the like the rest.

In reading, he's quite confident, if not pompous yet in such a way, that it is unique to him. By all means, he is not an arrogant fool, but a gentle soul whom is confident in whom he is becoming. He states what he has done, in a nutshell,..... why he challenges himself, why he finds if so exciting, and what he wants to do,..................where he fantasizes his talents will take him. Oh, I do hope he goes where he wants to go in life. He has such a passion for learning, and it makes me so proud to see this in him. Full circle. Its what I wanted for him, for them. The passion for learning and not stopping there. There are many things I want for my crew. But this, this passion for not settling for their basic education at the time, but rather pushing the limits of why and why not, and seeing what else is out there,.........that's where I want my crew to be. Everything changes at different rates, so expect it and learn from it. Grasp it, and do what you will. But be a part of something bigger than you.

He has such dreams,.............................*sniff.....................................

Believe that what you do in the first few months of life matter in a child. Believe you can sculpt them, and guide them to the best of your ability. Believe that your child wants you to, even if he never says it. Believe that even if he never says it,....................you had such a strong influence in giving him a solid foundation to grow on....................................and keep believing,................

gas is the reason i can't frolic,....

yeah,...member when gas was this much? feels like too long ago, and actually, it wasn't,....just sucks,....cuz now,...its hard for me to frolic,.................................

art

I am often asked "Why even bother,...WHY do you blog?" Is there a so-called "format"? Well, I skipped that class, and glad I did. And I figure, if one does not want to hear my nonsense nor read it, well, you have that choice. But in some way, its rather theraputic to me. I've mentioned before that I really never have the chance to "talk" so,...................................

And as far as someone listening,....................I don't care either way.

Here's a sampling of my "art". I don't think many get my art either, but I still push forward! I think I was meant to create. And h*ll, if I'm wrong about that, well, its been fun! I'm still working on what works well together, but in truth, its what catches my eye and holds my interest long enough for me to make it, draw it,....encompass it all together. It's how I work.

day shoot

...went on a day shoot with a professional photographer, and well, here's what i came up with,... these are my 'first impression faves' at the moment,... the first two are interesting to look at,... there's more than what meets the eye,...meaning they struck my eye/mind, with what i captured,...hey, its my art, so its what i like,..or what i find interesting,... and the other two just show you that when the professional is away "working with his subjects" the others will play,........................

damage control

helluuuu eveyone,..well,..maybe three of you,........not many more visit, so,... been awhile since i've last blogged, and sad to say,... not another beach diary as of late either,....drat!... just been too busy,...too busy with so much, so much of everyone else's stuff,.... damage control being one of them,...and i do it because of my need to help others, help the situation at hand to the best of my ability,.......................and so,.... quite frankly, i am done,..............................................

............done doing damage control for everyone else,... done doing so much for others............. and not taking care of what matters most to me,....my crew,. .. my "business",.....me........................i'm getting lost in this shuffle of madness with no one to blame but myself,............................

*funny lil side note here,......................i wish i could blame someone else for all of this!... LOL..yeah,..i know,...'evil gidget!....EVIL!'....oh well,..blame it on the damn evil monkeys!...let's move on!...............................yeah,...but to place blame on all the others, would be easier,..kinda self satisfying,.... but in the end,.....................its me letting it all happen,....infact, encouraging it,..."yeah, sure,........i'll bend over and take another!"............................anyhow,.........................

.....................so what i am trying to say is this,...............i know myself,..............and refuse to let this be ALL of me,..............consume me,..............i know i will "relapse into the same darn pattern",...but just smarter this time,..... not give all of me, thus leaving me exposed more than i want and can handle,........................................and for now,... i don't need all of the unnecessary *BS,............right? no,............i don't,...................................

I will hold dear to my heart, what's important, because somewhere down the road,...i have let it slip a little away,...putting unimportant things and people there,...........................so, back to basics,................back to being the insane, REAL me,...................and only for those who are worth it,............

and to everything/everyone else?........................you can still have me,......................for a "price" so to speak,.................................................ha, ha, ha,..... i just need to take care of what is important to me, before all of you,.........................hate me for being real, but hate is a strong word and emotion,..............................deal with it,.....................................

yeah, this has been a venting session, if anything,...... stuff on my mind,...........................but i think today, ... i am in a better place,.............. i just am,................................realization and full circle are mind blowing,..........................i've reached realization many times before,............and when i reach full circle,..............i'll tell ya all about it,.......................................

......................................be good to those who matter most to you....even if they are not good to you,... they learn from example,...*"heck,... i'm still waiting,....LOL"...................its worth it,..it is,...

.........be well, and may the sand on our endless stretch of beach find itself blowing near your feet,.......frolic!............................