"oh,....the beach diaries,.."

Hi. Hope all of you,....(how many is that?...well, i'll just never know!),..are well. Today, I flaked going to my fave spot. This being because I felt resposibility lurking around every inch of my house,......! EEK! And so,...I gave in to being an adult for a day,....just ONE day, mind you!

But yesterday,..... was unbelievably good! The surf was rolling in endlessly, temperature was almost perfect,............i say almost perfect, because there is no perfect,...........well, there is, but,...........ANYHOW,....the sand was untouched brown sugar,...mine to frolic in! *YAY!!!!..............but, my current physique got the best of me and so,....... I frolicked on the stairs first.

Doing sets of stairs is not even a chore to me. First off, I'm where I want to be,...my most fave place. Second, its just you and the stairs,....and the surf, sand, and sun,.... No expectations but my own, and I like that. I compete well against myself. I'm a very competitive person by nature, I suppose. Mommy-hood has calmed me down some. But I work well by myself. And as soon as I know someone else is onto what I'm doing...... I move on. Meaning, "been there, done that, don't need to prove anything to you,...." And when the time is right, I go back. So, stairs,............... instead of doing the popular set by the life guard station, I found a quiet set further down. Oh how wonderful! First off,.... quiet alone time,...member? "Me, and the stairs...." And as soon as I started my set, I found that the little landings in between didn't make it easier, but rather harder and gave me more of a workout, which I needed. Well, lets just say, gidget got her butt kicked! And I only managed 5 sets!!!! Oh, that didn't make me happy at all, when knowing my best set less than 1 1/2 years ago....(has it been that long?) was 18 sets (up and down),... 14 being my average! Ay! but, it gives me something to go on,... to compete against, and just do better. And I will.

After my 5th set, I kicked off the shoes, and went running in the sand. Again, disappointment lurked nearby,...because I was stopping sooner than I wanted and what I had remembered. Again, not giving up,...I probably ran (maybe 1 1/2- 2 miles?) dunno,.................oh well. I'd be happy with one mile. Sand was superb under my feet. I was able to catch some surfing action which is always a plus! And to my delight, I watched the older guys surf which meant they really were enjoying themselves and giving everyone a great show. True soul surfing,...you could just feel it. Real lax,... moving with the waves as one,.....just awesome,...................and that's how I survive running in the sand. Somedays are better than others. And some just suck,..no not really,.............................not if I'm there,....then the day is beautiful no matter what.

Today, I had to be happy with just an hour long trek around the neighborhood. It was good. Got some good exercise and outdoor air. Put some Hawaiian Tropic on and sunblock and that just brought me back to the beach anyhow. I was sorta disappointed because I had planned to just sneak off for like, an hour and a half. But, no,..got stuff to do. Everyone does. And if I play my cards right,.... Monday is gonna be a kick a$$ beach day, so,.......................................

.....................................gidget just might find herself where she wants to be............

My weekend is busy as ever,......................crew is all over the place,.............visiting family from out of town,....................so,.......................

May your weekend find you by the shore,............with sand between your toes...... sunblock on your nose,....................and no time schedule,.......................

....................................me.................................................

p.s.
wish us luck!!!!.... crew is doing a number of things!!!!

"Beach Diaries"

okay,...so i tried to upload a photo for you, but well,...whatev! There was a "problem".....hmmmmmmmmmmmmm,...

oh yeah,..*ahem! the "Beach Diaries"..kinda self explanatory, if you will, but guess I'll explain for some,.....another time! But for today.....gidget's faves for today's beach day,........

song to surf to: "When You Were Young" ~ The Killers
thing to do: sets of stairs and running as close to the surf as possible
music list to listen to: iPod set to "Jo's Xmas List"~ various artists rockin' this set, especially "Red Jumpsuit Apparatus"
conversation: high possibility, especially those frolicking towards the surf, like me,........
tasty treat: Jamba Juice's "Pink Starburst" with protein boost,...yeah, lots of calories, but tons of good stuff... a must!

so,...until later?...yeah,....till later,..................................

why do i bother anyway?

yeah,..so uh...thanx for the comment?...i guess?..... wow,..it was sooooo enlightening,.....dude!...throw me a friggn' bone, why don't cha?......

I am seriously alone on this one,...... its not hard to follow,.... and no.... i'm not jumping off a cliff any time soon,.....................................
............................much to your dismay,.............................................

and sometimes, we blog,...

I am often looked at as "stupid, with no life".... and knowing that I blog, well, it just adds to the sess pool. For those who entertain the thought that gidget has something extraordinary on her mind,....well, you lead me to believe that you do think well of me. But I know you don't. NO, this is not a "pity me" blog, but rather, a defining moment in gidget's history. You see, I am sometimes surrounded by "do-gooders" who really want to pay attention, want to make me believe I make sense, or that I do mean something in this world. But its not right, and not fair to make me believe all of this, when I know all of you guys don't believe it yourselves for one minute. So now I ask you this,... any one of you,...

Why do you do it? Why lead me to believe that what I am saying/blogging matters? It doesn't to you,...or you,....or even you *in the back row! *sigh,......

I guess everyone just wants to be heard, and validated. Right? How wonderful it would be to just have a person's attention, if only for a moment, to run amuck with their thoughts, and have them hang on every word, every thought, and not feel responsible for the after math......But what am I saying? Even I don't know.......

I have been silent for soooo long. I thought that I had grown,... my thoughts, my opinions,... I felt like I mattered. And just when I believed all of this, I realized that no one was listening after all. No one cared. What makes one individual more enthralling than the next?

It has been said to me a million times...."you're always there, you listen soooo well,... i can really talk to you,..." But ,.....who's there for me?

Here's a sobering thought,........

I don't need anyone, nor do you. Just when we lean upon someone, they lose balance anyway, get lost in their own selfish drama, so,...?..... Which is a good thing! Ha! It is, because, who better to count on than yourself? You are the one person who will be there, day in day out,..on this crazy road trip through life. And no drugs, counseling, friend, or foe can get you through it better than you. I'm right, aren't I...............................................................?.......

*sigh,...but still,....it'd be nice to be heard,...................................................................

proof of what really goes on,...

and this is why i was meant to have a crew, and this is also why i have a camera and can video tape,...................................

late blog of excitement

wow,...this is really going to be something,...to try and turn that exicitement back on from last Sunday,.... *stretching out, and preparing to jump start her excitement,....

And why, you ask? Last Sunday was one of my crew's first ever gymnastics meet! It was sooooo exciting! Nerves galore, but not much for her. She was more excited than anything,.... and very tired by the end of the day.

The day started at 4am for me,... and if you truly know Gidget...you know she was up making a lei, candy bags for all the other gymnasts, and packing up everything for the next day. Needless to say, lil gidget didn't collapse into be until well after 1am.

After getting up at 4am,..waking everyone else up,... I had hair to deal with. Yeah, hair! She has very long hair, past her waist,....and in recent years, its just getting thicker. It's beautiful! But all week, I was playing with it to get it plastered to her head just right, and up off the shoulders like its mandated to all the gymnasts. I can sooooooooooooooooo do "cheer hair",...no prob! But I just taught myself how to french braid, and was struggling to just get it as perfect and plastered and up for it to be decent. Luck was on my side,.... I also went through the whole "Now you know it takes me some time, and if it doesn't come out like I want it to, I will be pulling it out, starting over,...and YOU just need to be patient and know this is probably going to happen,...SO,..just go with my flow, k?,...no eyeball roll,..no heavy sighs,...cuz that will just irritate both of us,....so just relax, and we'll both be happy" -speech,.. and it worked! LOL *did gidget mention she looked daunting?....ha, ha, ha,..

So, uh, yeah, hair in place,...leo and warm-ups on,...oatmeal in the belly, snacks packed,...lei out of fridge,....... papa up,.........................directions in car,.....on way to get grandma,...... hit the 405 South,.... and we're off! *and yeah,...got the camera battery and camera,..............................

We get there in plenty of time,..thank goodness. I'm more excited than her, I think! But not nervous cuz I'm hoping she just has a great showing for her first time, and comes off the floor with a smile and knowing she did her best. Let's skip past everything else and get to the events! Cuz, in this case the story will get more mundane,....i think i've lost most of you already??? And btw, yes...i was shooting everything and everyone.....duh?

K, now on to the events! She warmed up very well! Our studio looked great! All uniform, all clean, and strong,...and together! I had no idea what an impression we made,...................anyhow,.... her first event was floor,....*side note!!!!oh, btw, her best events according to her coaches are vault and floor. She has been struggling with her back handspring but her dance and grace on floor are amazing they say, considering she has no formal dance training. She, along with a few others, was just brought up to team (competing), and have learned all the routine competion skills in like.... 2-3 months? And she competed against girls 1 year in that division,.......so,...she 's very new,......................anyhow,...on vault she is very strong in running and hitting her mark and vaulting,........BACK to the events!!!! k..so! On floor,.... she did very well! She threw her round off back handspring well,..... not perfect, but she landed it very well,... and she even smiled at the judges! Ah, how funny! She totally looked like she was enjoying herself. I was sooooo proud! Even her father and grandma were soooo amazed, for her first time......................................

She vaulted next,..... and did an amazing job! Again, both grandma and papa were amazed by her running form and speed. She looked fearless going at the vault. In her level, she vaults on a mat. Will things change when she actually hits the "horse"?.......................dunno,...she's got some power though............

Her bars were pretty good. She struggles with her skills. She muscles up on some of her skills but can do all her skills. She did fairly well here. She didn't fall! This would have been a major deduction..................

On beam,..which is one of my faves, she had two (maybe more?) things that caused her minor deductions. Other than that,...she was very strong and graceful. I love watching her beam routine. She has such poise and grace,...and she's strong! But she took a fall,..pretty much collapsed on the beam about a month ago, and I think its still in her head. At that time, she wouldn't stay off the beam, but rather made herself get back up, and struggle to do her handstand,...she would not give up! But again,...I think its in the back of her head,...she agrees with me,.. that if she gets to thinking about it,..with any of her skills and loses focus,...she doesn't do well. Anyhow,.... her leg hit the beam when she casted up,.... and she didn't do her twist dismount,...but got back up, and did it anyway which entitled her to a lesser deduction. Now, don't ask gidget about the deductions cuz right now, its confusing to me! I just pretty much know if she messed up,...

K, now for the super exciting part,...!!!!!........ she got two medals!!! yeah, TWO MEDALS!!!! Now her division was really broken up, had she competed against all the ages, it could have been different, but the excitement and joy would not have been,.......................SHE GOT HER FIRST "9" AT HER FIRST EVER MEET!!! and that is amazing in its own right! She received low marks on her beam (sniff!) and her bars and she knew this might happen. She placed 5th on vault with a 9.150! Wow,..she was soooo happy! And for floor, she placed 3rd with a 8.325, not bad! Considering that she needs to perfect her tumbling and one can always get better with a routine in time, this was great! I am sooo proud of her! She is soooo proud of herself! And the most important thing ever, is that what I wanted for the day, happened. She left the floor with a smile, knowing she did her best. That's all I really wanted,....plus I had hoped she would do well.......................................but,.............. who's kidding?...... The scores, medals, and just overall excitement definitely added to it. So, for the first one,.... (thanks to God for keeping her well,..........) we had a great time. Here's another exciting piece of news,.....she made sectionasl! Yeah, in fact our whole studio/gym made sectionals. Btw,..how rude! I should say here that our studio placed everwhere, pretty much in the top, and overall scorers and top team awards. That's great! So kudos to the team, the parents, and coaches. Without all of you, none of this could happen! *clapping wildly!!!.....................

So until then,.....wish us luck at sectionals,....definitely wish us a great time,........ and I'll keep you posted,.....of course, i left a photo at the top.......................sums up the day,...........................................dont' you think?...................