okay guys,...here's my eye,...

well,...here's my eye,.... I saw this and thought, "There's something beautiful about the park swings,...... " This was taken at 8 am, during our Cali heat wave, so the sun was just about done wisking away all the dew,...if there was any! The park employees had just finished raking the sand. No kids around,.....*sigh,..... can you imagine being a 5 year old, and seeing this? Oh, man! Your personal playground untouched, yours for the taking. You could probably run amuck and see your whole day of 20 minutes mapped out in front of you when you turned around to look at the sand. Kinda like the "Family Circle" cartoons, when you see their footsteps all over the place when they could have easily fed the dog in like, 5 steps? LOL

Still, it's my eye, that morning..... untouched, and I think its beautiful,............................

so here's that "First Day of My Senior Year" pic,....

okay,...is it just me,....or do you guys see something wrong with this here pic? I mean,....come on!.... besides the cracks in the pavement and no apparent artsy composition,....do you see how big the books are?!?!?!!? oh yeah!... expecially the one on the bottom?...........

just ridiculous!.....yeah,...he signed up for that class, but really,...........did the book have to be that big?.... its like,..11 pounds! I almost freaked at the idea that he would have to lug it back and forth,...... and no, he doesn't,....the students have a copy for home and a set for class,....... btw, his back pack is full too,.......................that's why he's carrying books,........

remember "PeeChee" folders? yeah,..us "brainiacs" never got by with one of those,..we had a 'binder',..... but we still did not have has many books,.........................................................just amazing,....oh! its an AP Art History book, btw,....and i've been indulging in it during the wee hours of the night when i can't sleep...............rather interesting, it is, but then again,...i love history and love art,......................many wonderful photos of original art throughout the history of mankind,......from its early beginnings,...from the cave art drawings found in France!...but no, the book is not entirely pictures,........................much text, much reading,......

anyhow,..just like to share this photo with all of you, and let you know get a sense of what your senior might be bringing home on his first day of his last year,.....*sniff!............................................................................

on being bored,...

hmmmmm,...I am bored. I am bored, bored, bored! I should've played hookey today and went to the beach, like I had planned this morning. But, *sigh,..... I looked around me, saw 'Responsibility' lurking everywhere,... and well,.............I'm where I need to be at the moment.

I've decided to make some blueberry muffins to brighten my day. Licking the bowl sure seemed to help. But the loads of laundry, and straightening up every room today just seem to drag me down. I know why,.....................its sunny outside! Total beach day!!!

I also just miss the crew. Funny, when they're about, its chaos but never the same day in and day out. I know by 2p.m. today, when I start my "job", it'll be a different story cuz my mind will be on overdrive trying to make all my windows, all my pickups, get all the info I can until dragging myself wearily into the house (not for the last time that day!) to forage for some food to put on the table and call it "dinner",...................and hoping its yummy, at that!

*sigh,................its just one of those days,.................

I had wanted to blog about something else,...maybe one of my many pics that only I find beauty in. My bro is constantly telling me I have an "eye" for a different kind of picture,....art.....maybe its his way of telling me that I suck. Could be,........................he's earning kudos and money,.... and well, I have my "wall" that I alone am proud of. No jealousy here, though. I admire what he does and am happy he's found his niche and can make some nice money from it too.

So, now,...I leave you with the smell of blueberry muffins filling the house. Along with my 6 more loads of laundry to do,......................................let's just hope tomorrow is a beach day for gidget....cuz somehow, someway,.....she needs to get there,.............................................for my soul's sake!.......................

and the school year is off to a , uh start,...

Whew! Is it just me, or did the summer just fly by? Its definitely been a surreal summer for me. A lot of reminiscing,............................my oldest is a senior. Where has the time gone? Its true, one does find the time gone by so quickly,.....you start to think back to the first day of school........................and DAMN IT!!!! I forgot to take a pic of his first day as a senior!!!!! aaaaaarrrrrrgggggggg! Yeah, gidget soooooooooo does NOT know how she is gonna live with herself for the rest of the school year for missing this classic scrapbook moment! moving on,..... i thought i was painting a picture here,..............a nice melancoly one, at that,.......................

And so,..........reminiscing and all,..yadda, yadda, yadda ,.....................I have decided that all though I consider myself rather artsy and avant garde,.....I will not be posting my "art",..well, not most of the time,....because all the best photos are already being posted on jimcayer.blogspot.com......................but I will surely post random photos of my own from time to time. NO WORRIES!

back to the senior year,............................................

Its a great thing to look at the beginning of this year and know as a parent, I've had a hand in getting him this far,.................he's done it himself, but the foundation was set. I do hope its a strong one. I do hope it has a lot of love and hope to get him through not just this year, but whatever lies beyond the tassel and certificate. I can only hope its enough to make him stronger than he realizes he truly is and can be,................for what life journey will take him. *sigh,..... random thoughts invade my mind,...............................pre-k seems like yesterday, but yet,...I know I was just "on" him about finishing "War and Peace",..hey! He chose it! *gidget mutters,..."choose wisely next time, my son,..." The summer before Pre-K was soooo exciting,...so hopeful! I mean,... he was going to school,...armed with skills taught at home clearly readying him for whatever lay ahead before 10:20 a.m.,......when, happily, I would be picking him up from his first real day without me waiting excitedly to hear what his day was like. And then the questions ensued,...."Did you like your first day? Was the teacher nice? Was everyone else nice? Did you make any friends? What did you learn today?"..... and yeah,... the other normal stuff like,.. "Did you have to go to the bathroom? Did you wash your hands?" And when Mom said, "Well, this is the beginning of them growing up, before you know it, he'll be graduating from 5th grade! And when he starts middle school, it'll all go by sooooo fast! Can you imagine him graduating high school?" And hiding the tears, I remember saying,"No, I can't. I mean, he was just gone half of the day!" But now,..even though I don't want to, I can. Honestly, I can sometimes and others, I can't.

So, I will wait until I have to start my day of carpooling, homework, and various scheduling,.... and I'll ask how his day went, just like I have for the past18 years, and I'll listen with hidden tears, and remember to make the most of it, and listen carefully, as not to miss anything,...because this is his journey towards graduation,...... it will end only to start the next aspect of his life. And,..............................its going to be rather exciting,....................... I can't wait to hear all about it,.........................................what a ride,..............................

........................me......................................